So, yah. I'm goin' to BlogHer09 in Chi-town with my favorite cousin to meet some really cool women and learn more about blogging - and here we can insert that perhaps if I know more, I will BLOG more. ahem.
Many of the women I follow in their blogs and on Twitter have posted entries which suggest nervousness and even dread about going to this event and being unprepared, either emotionally or, perhaps, and this seems to be mentioned more, in terms of the preparedness of one's wardrobe.
Well, I have clothes to wear, I don't know if they are the "right" ones, I hope they fit by the time I get to Chicago because the way I deal with stress like this is to EAT, which is counterproductive, I know, but still. This is me, BlogHer! Woo hoo!
So my bigger concern relates to being a single, childless, sober woman at BlogHer. My biggest nightmare is that I will burst into tears in the middle of a group of lovely kind well-meaning mommybloggers because I do not share their experience, regardless of how much I wish I did. It is coming up on a year that my whole adoption plan fell through, and I am still quite conflicted. I feel like I am going into the eye of the storm by going to this event, but perhaps this is one of those experiences that I will just say, "wing it" and have a greater understanding on the other side of it.
The sober part will be fine. I just know that I will be around more drinking more often than I have in quite a while. I have taken steps to ensure that I can get away to a meeting or two, so I will do what I've got to do.
My sense is that this event is meant to be about inclusion, participation and celebration. If I don't funk up my head too much, I might learn something about blogging and myself as well. (cue the afterschool special credits, please...)